I owe it to my body.

I owe it to my body.
After the class, I could not hold my tears.
I could not stop saying I am sorry I am sorry I am sorry to my body.
I have ruined my body, the temple of my God..
I think I almost killed my self during the class when the yoga instructure instructed the poses.
She did all the poses effortless. Let me repeat: effortless. Whoaaaa...
Whenever I felt so difficult to do those poses, my inner heart screamed, I used to be an athlete, I used to be an athlete, I race, I did sport like snacking, I swam I biked I ran I hiked...I cant except this incapability!
My kind super patient yoga instructure, patiently helped me and encouraged me 'it has been too long joice... too long... your body is rusty, but dont worry, lets do this!'
Oh my, it is a long way to go.. long way.
I need to fight the pain, the outbreath, the shame, the sadness, lazyness, dissapointment, because I owe it to my body. It's redemption time.
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